Battling Royalties

I didn't really know how I became so in love with you, I didn't know why I choose you when you can't even choose me. For a year and 5 months you've chased 2 royalties. The queen and the princess. How could a simple citizen like me could win over two royalties you've loved.

For almost a year and a half, you are the only person whose running into my mind. I am always hoping and praying that you are on a good condition and hoping that you are not drowned by the waves of problems you have to face. For the longest time I am always stealing a glance from you, but whenever I do you are also stealing a glance from a royalty. It is painful to see how you love somebody else who care less for you, but as time goes by I learn to be happy seeing you smile because of them and felt the deepest pain when you are in pain. One thing never change whenever you smile or cry pain has always been with me.

Day by day my heart is aching, though there will be a time that we will have a special moment I just can't enjoy it anymore because I know sooner or later you'll be back with queen or with the princess. I know the fact that I am just a nobody who crossed into your life. Then now I'm tired, slowly I am avoiding all of the moments and all of the chances I'll have with you, cause I know it's not me you are waiting for. Even if I comfort you for a thousand times as long as it is not the royalties whose talking to you, you will never be okay.

Since I know you'll never like me maybe I'll just tell everyone how much I cared for you:

I am the one who stalks your my day posts just to know how you've been

I am the one who wants to talk to you when you are down, but when I tried you just shut me down

I am the one who cares for you in every single thing you do

I am the one who always want to find you instantly when I am at the place where I know you are also there

I am the one who was so worried when I found out that you had an accident

I am the one who was so scared and wants to treat your wound after that accident

I am the one who will reply to you instantly even if I am so tired

I am the one who was very much willing to listen to all of your dramas

I am the one who was talking to you with much excitement even if it is just on facebook messenger, because you are so special to me

I am the one who was hoping that am the one you we're waiting to chat, just to comfort you

I am the one who thinks you're attractive

I am the one who prays for your safety every night

I am the one who thinks of you before I go to sleep

I am the one who care so much for you

and most specially

I am the one who loves you