Top of Everything

I open my eyes and I find myself inside a small tower without door

I looked up and saw bunch of stairs and lots of big wide opened windows

I took steps and took a sneak on the first window and saw a lot of people

They are all doing something; I would like to shout but afraid to disturb them.

Should I just jump? Or scream and ask for help?

Unconsciously I took another step and another, and another and another

Until I reach almost half of the height of this very tall tower.

My legs are tired so I sat down in front of a window and watched the people

They all seem so sad and burdened, I wanted to shout I just can’t be another burden.

I stood up again and started climbing this endless stairs.

Slowly I am getting tired and my body is giving up.

I want to shout but I just can’t disturb them

It’s getting colder and colder, can someone save me?

For a few times I have a thought of jumping,

But there is someone telling me

Maybe there will be something up there,

That will help me go down and will set me free.

Though I’m tired I took another step.

I continued. I did not give up.

My legs are shaking, and my eyes were sore.

Why am I here? Why did I end up being here?

I want to stop and just jump to a window,

But I didn’t, one step at a time and soon I’ll reach the top

I’m tired, I can’t stand anymore

So I climbed crawling.

Is it worth it? Or am I wasting my energy?

I looked up and saw a light coming from a door.

I regained my energy and I continued climbing once more.

I used up all my energy until I reached the door.

I crawl until I reach the corner of the rooftop

I roam around and look for something that could be my way out.

But there’s nothing here.

I roam around again, and again and again

From a slow pace to a fast paced speed.

My eye was a dark cloud pouring its heavy load.

Then I got tired and stopped.

Is there no way out?

“HELP!!” I screamed, but not even one looked

I screamed once more, but still no one was there.

I screamed over and over again,

With different tone, different intensity,

But it ended up with the same result.

I’m tired, I can’t do it anymore.

One step, and I’m on the edge,

Cold breeze of air runs through my hair,

I looked down and still no one’s there.

I took a deep breath, this might be my last.

I leaned forward, then I saw people looking at me

I can’t explain their expression, are they shocked, sad or what?

As gravity pulls me, I felt my body kissed the ground

I feel dizzy, and my vision is going blur.

But my vision is enough to see people surrounding me

With light from their phones flashing.

I guess this is the cruel reality,

They won’t see you struggling,

But they will notice your defeat,

They didn’t saw how I struggled,

But they saw my end.

People cared when it’s too late.

Tear fell from my eye, and slowly my eye closed

Self you need rest,

I hope you’ll find your peace,

Till the next eternity!